Monday, September 22, 2008

This is..... what I want to be when I grow up

Thanks bugandpop for this weeks topic but why did you have to pick something so hard! : )
Well, I remember when I was 5 I wanted to be an archaeologist. Then a paleontologist, an Egyptologist or a spy. In high school I wanted to be a pilot. But from then on I never really knew. It's funny when you're young you can imagine yourself doing or being anything. It's not just imagination but a feeling that anything is possible. As we get older we 'restrict' ourselves with our own beliefs about what we can and can't do. We have a mortgage, a partner, kids. Responsibility means we can't just run off and become archaeologists. Grown ups 'have' to earn money, keep the house in order, raise the kids and consider the wishes of their partners. Hubby and I are moving to the UK and every time we talk about it it seems too much to deal with. We have so many questions: Should we sell our house and buy in the UK? Rent our house here out? What do we do with our furniture? What about school for Moo? Should we have our next baby here or there? Blah, blah, blah. Yep, put it in the too hard basket.
My current occupation is 'stay at home Mum.' It's by far the best and most fulfilling job I've ever had but I have to say the hours suck! Holidays are few and far between but every day is filled with fun (and sometimes frustration.....) I consider myself extremely lucky to have the luxury of having the choice to stay at home with Moo or go back to work. Sometimes I do wonder if life would be easier if I went back to my old job (as an insurance underwriter) but then I wake up and realise what I'd be missing!
Now, it appears that I am rattling on.... so I should say what I actually want to be when I grow up! Well, I want to be kind and confident, happy and compassionate and I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to follow my heart...... whatever occupation that may be.